Post-Heartbreak
"Don't choose to stay. It will only hurt you" That's the words you said to me when I wanna be friends with you. It's like you already know what will happen at the end. The last time we spoke was on your last year's birthday. But we barely had a real talk. And somehow, we part. I do think of you, missing you, wonder about you. But do you feel the same? I know I should have move on. But I keep coming back. Wondering if it's the good decision to do. I kept search for your name but I don't have the courage to text you. I was afraid. Still afraid. Of everything. AJ, I know you're not here anymore. I know you won't save me again and again or hear my random emotional pain. I know I need to be strong just like you in order to keep surviving. But I don't feel brave enough. I'm still scared. But hey, I'm still trying :)