M U L A N

I have stopped writing Eth a long time ago. Every time I went there, all I could feel was emptiness. I don't think I can write without inspiration, Especially when l've lost my muse. Truth be told, I want to go back to Eth. I want to be where I belong, But how can I go home without my muse?

Wow I haven’t posted anything in a while.  Gosh I have so much to say but words seems to disappear whenever I try to write. Not sure if it’s because of me slowly forgetting or losing my muse. Or it was because that I’m losing my sanity and there’s no way I can get it back.  You know it has been 5 years since the diagnosed and 18 years since the start of everything. I’m still questioning myself am I doing the right thing. To be present now. Is this really what I want? Am I going to get through this or not. Will I ever be content enough. I don’t have the answer.