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25 December 2020 Let me tell you a story.. It starts with there is a flower that bloom on winter. Yeah, winter. It's Christmas. Well, not many people know about this story. But you do now. The flower that blooms in the winter. It's beautiful But you can never touch it. If you dare to touch it, you will only bleed yourself. It's winter again. Seeing you growing up a year older. Shine whenever the light touch you. Like crystal. Very tempting. Somehow, that flower was never meant for anyone. Never meant for take it, to be honest. All you can do is to nourish it and make sure it blooms every year during winter. But hey, it's okay. After all I am the girl who takes care of you. Just that and not more than that. It breaks my heart actually. To love something that won't even be mine. I'm that girl who chose to prick her finger while trying to reach it. I'm that girl who keep trying to hold on tight to it. I'm that girl that never stop caring. I know it's du

  "Because when it rains, I will always remember you. You know I will always be there for you. No matter what." Sejak kebelakangan ini bumi metropolitan sering dihujani. Tak tahu sama ada bumi sedang bersedih atau hujan yang turun dikatakan rahmat, yalah mencuci dosa dosa yang dilakukan oleh manusia. Melihat hujan yang turun dari tingkat 8 membuatkan dia dibuai kenangan lama. Atau barangkali melayan perasaan.  Sudahlah hujan, bersendirian pulak tu tambahan lagi bau aroma peach lagi membuatkan Malissa bertambah sendu. Sendu yang tak tahu nak digambarkan bagaimana. Kadang terasa menyesal, kadang rasa kosong. Hanya kerana satu nama. Aus. "Oh well December. How can I ever move on from him?" Flashback... "Don't think that I will ever come back after what you did!" jerit Aus bengang. Rasa amarah makin menebal dalam hati. Malissa yang berada di hadapannya dipandang. Satu keluhan dilepaskan. "You know what Malis? Let's just stop everything right now.

10 days before your birthday Dear J,  How are you? Have you been okay since I am not around you? How was you life without me? Did you ever miss me? I think I lost my count on how many days since I lose you. It was awful, I must say. Hey J, Did you even like me?