Re : 10 days

10 days before your birthday

Dear J, 

How are you? Have you been okay since I am not around you? How was you life without me? Did you ever miss me? I think I lost my count on how many days since I lose you.

It was awful, I must say.

Hey J,

Did you even like me?

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