The Day

So today is the day. The day where most people would celebrate it with so much happiness. But somehow I know it's not for me. Nobody remember it. Well, except for Jaja and Irzd. Thank goodness I have them. For what's worth, I got Irzd and Al back. I got both of them back. 

15 May is just like any other date. There's nothing special about it. Except it's Irzd's birthday too. His birthday are more important than me. So Irzd, I wish you for all the good things that will happen in your life. I really owe you. Thank you for being my savior. Please keep being my savior till forever. Don't ever let me go, okay?

I love you. No matter how annoying you are, I still love you. Because you're my big brother. Forever and always. 

Thank you for be the first person to wish me a happy birthday. Well, happy birthday to both of us I guess.


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