M U L A N

 How can a heart break again when it's all ready been pieces? I got my heart break. Again and again. Silly me thinking that someone would ever really care for me.

Why am I broken? I couldn't even save the ones that I care about. Perhaps I should end everything.

 It's been ages since I post about AJ. My AJ. Hey AJ. Can I tell you that I miss you? Freaking missing you. I miss our talks. I miss to make a card that have every of your words. I miss the way you comfort me. I miss our little fights. I miss everything about us. Deep down I will always know that I can never forget you. Today when I went on rendezvous with my friends, I kept thinking of you. Perhaps I was hoping that I will meet you. Ever since I had a dream of you where you text me saying you were sorry for everything. Were you miss me or were thinking of me? In every crowd, I was searching for your face, or to be exact your eyes. But you were never there. I really need to get you of my mind. But how could I when every time I'm in lrt, I still searching for you. Even the song Dancing with A Stranger also remind me of you.

So today is the day. The day where most people would celebrate it with so much happiness. But somehow I know it's not for me. Nobody remember it. Well, except for Jaja and Irzd. Thank goodness I have them. For what's worth, I got Irzd and Al back. I got both of them back.  15 May is just like any other date. There's nothing special about it. Except it's Irzd's birthday too. His birthday are more important than me. So Irzd, I wish you for all the good things that will happen in your life. I really owe you. Thank you for being my savior. Please keep being my savior till forever. Don't ever let me go, okay? I love you. No matter how annoying you are, I still love you. Because you're my big brother. Forever and always.  Thank you for be the first person to wish me a happy birthday. Well, happy birthday to both of us I guess.

 

 How to make all the thought goes away? How to make all the noises stop? I hate this phase. This maniac phase. It's so irritating. I become energetic. I wanna do everything. And I don't even feel tired. I just want everything to stop. 

For me, home isn't a building. It's all about the people you care about. They're my home. My safe place. No matter where I go and how far we apart, I can always count on them. For the past 8 years, they always stay.  Jaja, Irzd, Al. How lucky I am to have such wonderful friends. Somehow I dont think I'm worthy enough to have them in my life but apart of me are blessed.