Failure
Why am I broken?
I couldn't even save the ones that I care about.
Perhaps I should end everything.
Chapter : Where do we go now?
It’s April and this is my first post for this year. I’ve been away for almost 7 months and now I’m back. Before 2024 starts, I reconsidered to give life another chance. I don’t know if that’s what I truly wanted but I promised my friends that I would try again. And so I did. It’s challenging to be honest. Well, life isn’t supposed to be easy. I know that. Two or three weeks ago, I had a major relapse. The second time I relapse this year. One was in January. And the second time was in March. Ever since my first relapse in January, I barely recognised myself. I felt numb. I started to forget things and it affects my work. I um became a workaholic which was worse for me. I didn’t get the rest that I needed. That’s when I have countless near death encounters. Especially when I drive to work. I stop talking to my friends. I pushed people away. That’s what I do when I’m not okay. I know I should ask for help. I know that it’s okay for wanting he...
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